Overwhelming Gratitude

As I wrote yesterday’s post, I read and reread the words.  After it was completed, it took me several minutes to hit the PUBLISH button.  It was by far the most difficult post I have ever written.

I had no idea what would happen when I published.

Within minutes my phone started dinging text, people started commenting with support on the page, I got emails, phone calls and private messages.

To say I am overwhelmed is an understatement.

I have had people stop by the store just to give me a hug, I was stopped in Wal-Mart and at the grocery and hugged tightly and lovingly.

A friend stopped by and gave me a jar of fresh apple-butter she had just made, another brought me a fruit basket just to let me know they cared and love me.

And then, I got the first of four messages from other people who had been victimized, heart-breaking stories.  My heart is filled with an appreciation to these gentle souls who felt comfortable to share their stories with me. Stories like mine, that very few, if anyone else knew.

Rarely in my life am I at a loss for words, but I am.  Thank-you doesn’t seem to be enough, but that is all I have….. THANK YOU!

 

Short Notes – 10.8.13

Diana Nyad continues to inspire.   Swim for Relief

Reese Speaks Tuesday 10

Have A Little Faith

Words

Kris and Bruce split, more Kardashian family values.

Liar liar pants on fire.

Tom Hanks has type 2 diabetes.

Inspiration personified by Valerie Harper

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West Palm Beach Green Market 10.5.13

Short Notes- 9.17.13

Today is my favorite young man’s 21st birthday…. love my nephew with all my heart!

Sir Paul

Words

Tuesday 10

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Short Notes…. 8.28.13

Today is 50×50 weigh in day for month 2.  Let’s just say I am not happy, not surprised either.  I have some catching up to do by September 28th, next month’s weight goal…  217.4

Heart

Words

This afternoon as I was walking to the water fountain, I passed the receptionist desk just in time to hear her say “hey baby.”  Well, hello to you too…. kind of made me feel hot, until I realized she was talking to her son on the phone who was just checking in to let her know he had gotten home from school.  FML

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The 50×50 Challenge……

50 x 50

In exactly ten months I turn 50.  Fifty, the big five -oh, half a century, yes 50.  While I realize I don’t look a day over 48 3/4, I will be 50 in 10 months. April 28th for those of you who don’t already have it marked on your calendar, although I can’t imagine why you would not.

So yes, I will be 50.

Honestly, being 50 doesn’t bother me in the least, I am secretly enjoying aging as my eccentricities become more and more acceptable with each day.

The age doesn’t bother me, what does bother me is, I am fat.  FAT, FAT, FAT!  There is no other way around it…. I am FAT!

When I was younger I swore I would never allow my families battle with weight affect me, I would be cute and skinny forever…. well, look at me now… I am FAT!

The way I calculate it, I am about 50 pounds overweight.  Yes, there is that number again…. 50.  Do you see a pattern developing here?

I have been thinking about my 50th birthday a lot lately, but more than that I have been thinking about that extra 50 lbs I am carrying around every day, so I have come up with a plan.

I want to lose 5 pounds…. yes, 5 pounds, that is my goal.

Between today and July 28th, my goal is to lose 5 pounds.  The next month, another five and so on and so on and then 10 months from now, on the day I turn 50, I want to be down…..  yes, you did the math FIFTY POUNDS!

I honestly don’t think this is an unreasonable goal, while it sounds massive when you say, I am a big fat ass that is 50 pounds over-weight.  It doesn’t sound as massive to say, I plan to lose 5 pounds over the next 30 days.

I need to go in baby steps here, but I MUST do this, I have no other choice.  This is my one chance not to be fat for the rest of my life, it is now or never.

As I begin this journey, I need your help.  I cannot do this alone, I know that.  While I don’t plan on turning this blog into a fat-ass blog, I will be posting results and status, I need your help holding my feet to the fire.

When I see you, I need some encouragement, OR I need you to tell me that I am still fat and need to work harder.  Whatever you choose, I will accept, I need assistance!

I am a pretty independent guy and don’t like asking others for help…. but I am asking, I need your help.  I need you to help keep me on track so that I can drop this weight and lead a more productive life.  I want to do awesome things and enjoy incredible adventures, right now my weight is holding me back, but more importantly my apathy is holding me back.

Today I embark on the 50×50 challenge.

50 pounds lighter on the day I turn 50.

I am not going on some crazy diet, I am going to work towards eating healthier and exercising more.  I have begun walking or swimming each day after work , I am open to other work-outs so if you have an idea or want to do something together let me know, I am open!

Now I get vulnerable, my starting weight….  232.4.  Five pounds, my goal for the next 3o days is five pounds.

50×50 I ask for your prayers, encouragement and honesty.